Lovers & Madmen

So remember how I told y'all that I was a part of that nerdy theatre board? And remember how my friend Greg took amazing photos where my nipples didn't end up showing? Well... I made them into advertisements to try and grab freshman that ended up looking like this:

WELLLLLL some of our founding members from ages ago saw them and were so impressed that they are planning a trip out to see our next show! There is a group of about 15 of them who are flying in from New York because they want to see how far we have progressed! I am so excited! Maybe I am good at advertising and that could be a fun job if I fail at all other dreams I have! So here we go!

Glitter

There is something about glitter that attracts me to it. Biologically it is probably the shiny part of it. Anything that changes the way light moves draws the eye to it. But I think I am most bound to the fact that it covers everything and gets everywhere. That is the feature that is most similar to myself. While I would like to think that I refract light into pretty colors wherever I go it is more likely that the minute you let me out of my container I seem to be in places that you don't find possible... the carpet, the ceiling, your hands up your nose... I am an energetic ball of glitter.

My evening went as follows...

I really wanted some La Madeline French Onion soup... so we went to one. But the soup was cold. My mom talked to the manager and we went to another one. Then we went to Macy's where the first thing I went to were the shiny tights. I also REALLY like tights... but my job was not that... it was to find a watch... but I only wanted to look at the blingy ones! Then I wanted the shiny pots and pans and the shiny comforter and the shiny underwear... it was a problem..

THEN I made my parents drive around for hours so I could look at the pretty lights.... WHO AM I?!

So I was obviously in a shiny phase and I came home and glittered EVERYTHING! I glittered a box and I glittered a shirt and I glittered a hat...

I wanted more to glitter and I almost glittered my favorite pair of flats but luckily something said no in the back of my glittered brain. Glitter is all over my floor and in my hair and on things it was no where near...

Today was an all-around okay day. It started out feeling really boring but when I look back on it I truly enjoyed my time with Lauren and with my Mommy and my Daddy and with my glitter... Life is pretty sweet y'all.

Winter Break

I AM GETTING CRAFTY!!!! I love getting crafty! People's gifts are all homemade that I found on Pinterest but really I couldn't help but make things for myself...

A collar necklace!

SPARKLES!

Really at this point anything shiny and sparkly gets my attention so beware of your gift from me if you don't like sparkles...

I LOVE MAKING PINTEREST HAPPEN!

Finals Week Breakdown

I have done fairly well so far. I aced, and I mean ACED my Logic exam which I was so excited about but as I finish writing my 5th page of study guide for an exam at 9 AM tomorrow, I realize that I may or may not be able to handle the rest of this evening. My nutrition of the day has been an extremely strange combination of sugar and protein in order to stay awake and invested in my studying. I mean my food has gone as follows: Atkins shake, sunflower seeds, Special K Protein Bar, Fruit Loops, turkey sandwich, and a liter of Dr Pepper, with a bag of beef jerky still to be consumed. To say my digestive system has been a tad confused today would be an understatement.

Also, impulse buy of headphones so that this guy who is chewing so loudly will be zoned out. I have never, and I mean never, heard something this badly... we are sitting literally 30 feet from each other and I can hear him over my own crunching of Fruit Loops. It is working for now. Nothing like Regina Spektor to let you know that life is okay.

I work my grandfather's sweater today and of course by today I mean the past 50 hours... but it has given me some pretty good mojo. He was an extremely brilliant man and it feels as though I have a little bit of that rubbing off on me today. I need that. It has been one of those days where I think I'm funny but really I am just stupid and slap happy.

Time to get back to the last of my study guides!!!

Dark

I have been pretty absent lately. I apologize. I have been in tech week for my show which closed earlier today. Honestly it was one of the most stressful and time-consuming processes I have ever been a part of but one of the most rewarding. I have learned so much about myself as an actor through it. I might be able to do this as a living kids. I know I went to college for it, and I know I might have pretended that I knew what I was going to do with my life, but honestly who really knows that? This show showed me that I can do it. I had people telling me that it was the strongest ensemble and the best show they had ever seen on this campus. Guys... I cried on stage. This is not an easy thing for me. If you know anything about my mourning patterns, then you know my face usually ends up like this:

I am quite an angry person when I feel like the world has screwed me over... But I cried for this show. It was beautiful and I couldn't have done it without these wonderful buddies!

 So my roomie the wonderful Louise Hunter has been abroad all quarter and I cannot begin to explain to y'all how excited I am to have her back in my life! so I made sure our door was all decorated and pretty for when she comes back! I might be annoying and fill our room with balloons or something too! She is beautiful! Silly girl went to London... she is FROM London. Well I guess we all know that if she weren't weird then we wouldn't be roomies. She is a beautiful creature who only uses her accent when she is drunk and frequently reminds me that I am never home. She is the reason I have seen Jurassic Park and that I survive sorority social events. (Guess how many I have been to without her? ZERO!) So she is also a positive boost for my social life and girlyness! Oh I am SOOOOOO pumped!

GUYS! I experienced my first black friday. The picture below tells you all my feelings about it. 

I will be sure to be a more constant source of amusement in your lives now that I have mine back!

Apparently I'm a Morning Person

I have been awake since 5 am. Why? Because my body said so. I have been sleep talking all night. (One of those times where the words you say in your dream seem extra loud and you know it is because you have said it out loud) and somewhere around 7:30 I decided to give up and get some work done.

It is at times like these, the very far and very few in between, that I have time to think about everything. I've had a really spectacular quarter. There have been ups and downs but all in all I cannot complain. 

I have incredible friends

GO U! NU!

This is my theatre board after we kidnapped our new members!

Not to mention a boyfriend who showed up with pizza and a carnation yesterday...

It meant we were watching the Eagles game but still pretty good...

I am in a show that is coming up. I am emceeing. Producing is going well. School itself seems to be settling into place. 

This is the director I'm producing for...

The only down I can think of is that I am not able to go home for Thanksgiving. I love Thanksgiving. I love food. I love family. I love football. I love pilgrims and indians (native americans). I love pumpkins. I love leaves. I love canned, jellied cranberry sauce over fresh. I love the endless selection of pies. I love, LOVE, stuffing. Stuffing is pretty much a bartering chip that will get anyone anything they want from me. So it is sad that I won't be home to experience it. But I am doing what I can. Boyfriend will be here and so will several other friends and we are having a quaint little Thanksgiving to ourselves. Guess it is kind of like my first grown up Thanksgiving. Weird. I'm not grown up yet. I'm twenty. I'm still in college. I still have no clue what I am actually doing with my life, how can anyone expect me to baste a turkey?

Lazy Saturday

It is 2.55 PM. I am still in bed. I will be getting out momentarily to get ready to go over to Evanston-Township High School (the star of Mean Girls) and cheer on their mini-Dance Marathon! I am feeling a bit sick which is never good when going in to a tech week so I am using that as my excuse to be lazy.

This is what I need right now....

 I could very easily grab some caffeine and make myself get up and be about but...

but this is more likely to be true

I think I would much rather have a lazy day and cheer on some high schoolers and then watch some good theatre. Yep. I also have decided posts don't have to be long. I like this new found theory.

Today in a Picture

How I feel towards the world today...

Nostalgia

So it has come to my attention that the world is full of people who do not make sense. I do not make sense, my parents do not make sense, my friends don't make sense. But then there are people who make even less sense than normal. Those people are the friends of convenience. The people who are only there for you when it is good for them, so actually they are just there for themselves. What about that is rewarding? What about a friendship like that would anybody envy?

So I am sitting in my logic class, texting my two best friends in the entire world, getting way too excited for Christmas break and getting to see them both and this guy in the back row raises his arms to stretch. You know this commercial with the canaries? His pits were pretty much that awful. I may not be the most hygienic person out there, let's be honest how often I actually wash my hair is disgraceful, but I at least try and maintain the illusion of cleanliness. I don't understand what goes through a person's head when they pull up a shirt like that to put it on... "No one will notice this softball sized pit pee-stains if I keep my arms down all day right? This striped oxford won't call any attention to that." There are many a problems with this. First of all, oxfords are designed to make you sweat more. By the look of his shirt though, he is also a natural sweater, why combine the two? Secondly, there is no possible way anyone is capable of keeping their arms down all day. Thirdly, if the above two problems didn't bother him, then he is okay with people seeing these marks and that is a whole nother level of weird.

Jessica Kane is in France. That awesome transition you just saw was to let you all know that the person I idolize fashion-wise (and pretty much life-wise) when it comes to Northwestern students is not currently in the country for me to idolize. I have taken on the role of being my own model this quarter while she is gone. Something she does that I am trying is she religiously changes her nail polish every three days. And she doesn't just change to a different color, she changes designs and sparkles and they are always beautiful. I first started this with my World Series spirited nails...

Then I moved on to paint them for recruitment preview. I haven't been the best of Thetas this quarter due to theatre and life and I tried extremely hard to make up for this. Apparently the picture I thought I had of these no longer exists. *Edit* It was on my phone!!!

Then I tried that half moon thing that people are doing... It pretty much failed but It might have been my harsh choice of color combo. This is something I will work on in the future. I would show you but the guy sitting directly behind me is already creeping on my typing of this and he probably doesn't want to star in the picture of my black and robin's egg blue nails...

Yes I did place my fingers to cover a zit

see? bright and bold color combo that might have worked but didn't.

I lost my favorite ponytail holder today. It just fell out of my braid. I was reaching around to play with my braid when I realized that I no longer had a braid which meant my favorite ponytail holder is gone. Everyone has their go to scrunchie. They wear it on their arm at all times it is not in the hair. It has just the right amount of zing and doesn’t hurt your hair. Mine happened to be one of the fabric ponytailer holders from Francesca’s or little boutiques that don’t crease or damage your hair but hold it tightly. It came in a pack of three. There was a grey, a black and a zebra. The grey has long since lost its worth being my summer pony and sun faded and worn had to go. I had moved on to the black and it has been a faithful friend for three months now. It has seen me through exams and rehearsals and auditions and homework. It always kept my hair out of my face without pulling it so tightly that it looks like I have a chinchilla gripped to the back of my skull for dear life. It was always classy in its black color with a slight sheen. I will be forced to move on to the zebra print when I return home today., a print that is much more bold and eye-catching. I will miss you scrunchie. You were worthy of a much greater owner.

EW! There is a couple in my logic class who just kissed because this girl got a problem right or something. GROSS!!!! Note to couples everywhere: Kissing is cute at the right time in the right place. No one wants to see someone making out as they take an exam. They want a peck at a wedding or a goodbye peck is fine. Basically not in class, not at work, be courteous! Please people. I SAW THIS EVERYWHERE TODAY! As I was walking in to my renaissance drama class a couple was just making out to say goodbye before class… like really you will see her in an hour and a half… CTFO! I’m all for more love in the world… but population growth is unnecessary before class. 

DANCE MARATHON!

For those of you who have heard, you know that Dance Marathon is a 30-hour dancing phenomenon in which Northwestern students dance for a different beneficiary each year. This year we had a record number of sign-ups with over 1,300 dancers signing up to lose sleep and play with kids in early March! NUDM has selected the Be Positive foundation to dance for this year and I could not be more excited to be working with these kids. These B+ Heroes are the siblings of and children with childhood cancer. Please check this foundation out!

Well, I decided a while back with a close friend of mine, Ned Baker, that I wanted to Emcee all of DM this year. So we filled out the application, made the video, and went through the live audition. We got called back. So we went through that process which is severely secret and then tonight they called us in and told us WE GOT IT!!!!! This is probably the greatest honor I will achieve at Northwestern closely ranked with my diploma. I will be working closely with all these heroes and their families and the dance marathon exec and probably meet our university president, Morton O. Shapiro, which is also the COOLEST person I could meet on this campus. I am pretty much overflowing with facebook notifications and emails about what I am going to do. I was interviewed thrice already and quoted in our school newspaper... no not just quoted... there is an article on Ned and I. I apologize for bragging. I doubt many people read this anyway. Quick post to explain my excitement!!!!

Here we are!

Ned and I were so surprised! We hugged and could barely speak but they gave us some cool visors and took our pictures and here we are! Moving forward as somewhat campus celebrities. Something I learned from this is that if you don't try for something, you can't get it. Try guys, the world is a happier place if you do!

Blogs...

Blogs are stupid. In fact, they pretty much suck. I felt like I just took the time and energy to make a post yesterday and actually it was 10 days ago! I don't do enough interesting stuff for this! Well, I am guarding a bake sale right now. I would say I was working it but in reality everyone is in class during this time so the only real time people buy stuff is in between classes, which is not right now, so I am watching to make sure than no muffins run away.

We have quite the array of baked goods. There are blueberry, corn, and pumpkin muffins; huge chocolate cupcakes with vanilla or peanut butter icing; chocolate chip cookies; and marshmallow fluff suger cookie sandwiches? I put the question mark at the end because that is what the sign reads.

See?! Anyway, It is pretty quiet and I thought that there would be no better time to sit and contemplate baked goods. Bake sales are such a large source of money for the theatre community here. People go all out on these things. I have seen pizzas and caramel apples and some crazy flavored cupcakes! What is your favorite baked good?

I'm applying to be the emcee of our Dance Marathon. I usually help out on one of the committees but Ned Baker and I decided to take it one step further and try to host the whole thing! And so I leave you with a video... our audition video...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rmQAY5vdBw

It is pretty spectacular if I do say so myself!

Not as Consistent as I Thought...

Yeah... really not so good at doing this every day. But then I look at Lauren and Erin who I have been blog stalking for weeks and never updated. Then Lauren FINALLY wrote something new and I go to check it out... It is promoting Rent the Runway! This is great, super cool internship she is going for but I want to know about her life. So I instead go and delete my current account for RTR and create a new one under her name so she gets credit. That is how I spent my thursday night. That is of course only after I couldn't sleep because I went to see the midnight premiere of Paranormal Activity 3. I have become quite a fan of this series. I have seen the prior two. However, they never fail to scare that dingleberry of poop out of me. So why I thought a midnight showing on a school night was wise, I will never know. I was wide-eyed waiting to be pulled out of bed by an invisible source. Which is when I realized that I am no longer scared of intruders. Wanna know why? Because I can kick an intruder where the sun don't shine or steal their gun and shoot them superhero style. You know what you can't do with supernatural forces? ANY of the above.  You are stuck fighting something you can't see, or touch (but freakishly feel) and any attempt to save yourself is futile. So after I made Boyfriend stay up and play 500 rummy with me until he needed to go sleep, I read Lauren's blog. Paranormal Activity 3 gets an overall rating of 4 stars. EXTREMELY scary and EXTREMELY well executed but in the long run there is something about recommending something that gave me night terrors to anyone I know and care about.


OH! those photos with my nipples came back. Nothing with my nipples was actually used by my board to promote, unfortunately, and in fact none of the photos really had any of my nipples in them. But I did get this spicy baby to create a poster for my board.

Yes, my nipply nips are hiding in his back. 

So many awesome photos came out of this. Greg Uzelac, our photographer, is so very talented! BAH! I love everyone reading this for putting up with my rants! BOOP!

I'm a Liar

So it has been over a week. And I lied a bit… I’m not posting the outfit stuff today. It has been too much! But I HAVE A CAST! So… I am producing a show in February and we just cast it and I couldn’t be more thrilled! They are so talented and awesome and hot! But actually we have such an attractive cast and I can’t wait to play with them!

I am sitting in Renaissance Drama kind of listening to this guy talk about this piece of artwork, which shows Jesus with the plague. I’m a little too disgusted to pay attention so here I am. I will describe this to you… Jesus is doing his thing, chilling on the cross, crucified and such but he is covered in leper-like spots and his feet are covered in buboes and black grossness. Yeah… this is definitely the holey Lord.  

It is times like this when I wonder if my sarcasm is going to send me to Hell. I love Jesus and I love God and I love people but a good religious joke every now and then is always appreciated. I think I will compromise. I won’t give up my jokes but I will just start praying more. “Dear God, Sorry I made fun of your son’s feet today. They really are lovelier than mine no matter what shape they are in. I am not worthy. Amen.” About right.  

These people are somehow still talking about this. Is that a pregnant man? I thought only seahorses could do that. The person who painted this must have had a very distorted view of the world and Jesus. Religious art always amuses me. No one ever has the same view as I do and most people who choose to paint or write about religion have a very strong crazy view. Check into it.

This is a great transition!

So why did Hulu decide that it can’t show the newest Glee until a week later? I don’t want to subscribe to Hulu plus and I am never going to. I’m not paying to see free shows. So, I watch Castle on Tuesdays and then watch the Glee from a week prior on Wednesday. 

FOX REALLY?! 

***Interlude***

This boy just burst into an Irish accent to present the minutes from our last class… 

***End Interlude***

So TV now sucks. I can’t watch TV live, I don’t have time. So I used to depend on Hulu. Hulu has betrayed me. We can’t be friends any more Hulu! I counted on you to catch me up on all the shows I miss or am too embarrassed to watch in public. If only there was another way to watch my shows I would never visit you again!

Tuesdays are long.

It's Beginning to Look Like a Trend

Get excited because tomorrow is going to be a countdown of the 10 best and worst outfits to wear to an audition!

However, today is a whole different story.  I didn’t eat, didn’t sleep, did pee, lost a few friends I’m sure, and traveled the education mountain of work I had yesterday, uphill both ways in the snow, barefoot and pregnant*, my intestines falling out and slowly being eaten by the rabid wild hogs that were following me. Every single professor had something due. And I’m not talking about some little worksheet. I am talking about a problem set, a 20-minute presentation on Medea, a summary of the ancient world from creation through the final judgment, and an ekphrasis (a summary of a piece of art) and a quiz. The whining will now end.

*I am not actually pregnant. This is a saying. Do not run and tell my parents.

Last night, Lovers & Madmen, the ultimate theatre board of nerdiness, had a publicity photo shoot. We are trying this year to go for a more neutral approach. While we do focus on the classics and Shakespeare and other ancient dorks, we would like to try and attract some normalish people to join this year. The theme of our shoot was “Keeping the Classics Classy”. In my head I was thinking a very James Bond, classic family portraits, clean lines and shapes in sharp formal wear. It turned into a nothing less than a lovely experience of the complete opposite. We had people dueling over women, licking swords and not to mention my nipples were everywhere. I was wearing this American Apparel dress:

Actually impossible to wear.

It is backless and hence I was braless thinking it would be a quick photo shoot and we are outta there. False. It turns out that the film building keeps its studios colder than a Texan in Antarctica due to the heat of the lights. I’m sure this would have been appreciated had I been wearing real clothes. Unfortunately my mind was on seducing the young and not on keeping myself protected from the elements. The photographer said he would photoshop out what ever seemed inappropriate. I will be sure to show y’all some of those photos soon.

I am going to try to appeal to my public and make at least a part of this blog about something I am slowly feeling more strongly about: fashion. Really what this means is I will tell you what I am wearing each day and how I feel about it. I have made a pact with myself that I will at least try and look presentable every day of fall quarter. I would say the whole year but sweatpants in winter are the best and I am not quite strong enough to give up the security of my worn in Theta butt pants, the ones that degrade the sisterhood because my letters are splattered across my buttocks.  I wear them probably 2-3 times a week in private and they can be brought out to view by all the north-campus frat stars about once a week. The point is, I spend way too much time now, the night before, piecing together ensembles I find appropriate enough to don outside of my lair. It is not something that comes naturally to me. I can do the matchy-matchy concept but when it comes to mixing colors and patterns I pee myself a little. So I am starting slowly. Today I decided on the ever neutral denim shirt. Why these were stashed away so long I am not sure. They are great. I will always keep mine. It is pieced with an Urban Outfitters skirt with birds on it. I like birds. I like Urban. I like things on sale. This skirt was all three and therefore is now covering my rumpus. Paired with some white keds, a brown wide belt and a bullet necklace, I feel pretty confident today. Of course I forgot my sunglasses and I have been squinting at everyone which is probably not adding to my appearance but no one needs to look at my face if everything else is in fair condition. 

There. I have appealed to people who don't care about my personal life. Now maybe I should look back up at the board. Logic is not actually that logical... 

Picture of Daily Emotion. Today: overwhelmed.

This Blog is Really Purple

It is on this day, in my History of Ancient Philosophy class, under the greatest professor I have ever known, that I write what will make me the most artsy I have ever been. My first blog post. Blog sounds like Blerg. Blerg is like Zunes! Or Meep! Or Mrrrrr! Blerg seems to be an onomatopoeia, unfortunately, that sounds like a bad thing. (Yes, I may have extended the definition of onomatopoeia a tad just so I could use the word onomatopoeia in this post.) So for this reason, I have avoided creating a blog. Also, probably because I just don’t have all that much time and, just like the Myspace I created solely to reach into the secret depths of my middle school crush’s life,  it will probably eventually fall by the wayside. So each post will be a new accomplishment.

This post is really for Lauren and Erin. Not Only because I am going to say things about them but more because they are probably the only ones who will read this. Hi y’all. I  miss you pumpkin butts like crazy! These girls have been the support system in my life for approximately 7 years now. I go home for the holidays solely to be able to see them. So, when it recently became apparent to me that I would have to stay in Evanston over Thanksgiving, I began to sulk a bit. It is an incredible opportunity. I have been cast in a great show, under a great director with a great ensemble and really I will grow as an actor through the process but nothing will make up for the late nights driving around (past specific checkpoints if I may) and sitting in Starbucks and walking through Highland Park Village with these ladies. 

I mean... if you had friends as beautiful as this: 

We were photo magicians that day

I bet she hates me for this...

Not that Erin will love this

 Let us begin with Lauren. She hates me right now. But while this photo may not show that she is the most stunning and confident diva I have ever met, it does show exactly what feeling she gives me. Mama Nugget! Yet the photo of Erin perfectly displays our relationship as well. This subtle ugly face is something that I believe she and I have mastered over the years. Our summers in Colorado and years of being awkward are great practice. 

Woah! Love rant. It is with this crazy, obsessive post that I leave you. (Myspace flashbacks). 

Blessed and cursed with no one sitting behind me as to not capture their stunned faces.

A Thom Out.